Getting Ready

We have been getting ready to move to Laramie and I'm so excited! But I'm also getting really nervous. I haven't found a job yet. I have been applying for literally everything and I only got one call back from Wells Fargo. I did a short phone interview with them and I think it went well but I guess we will see. 

This week has been insane. Justin and I went to powell to go to Yellowstone with my family. And we went to Yellowstone at about 8am. But had been up since 6. We went and it was a little rainy but it was so much fun. As we were leaving my dad was getting calls from family saying that my grandma was in the hospital and everyone needed to get to Billings quick because they didn't think she was going to make it. My dad kept getting calls on the 5 hour drive to the hospital at 10 pm. The calls were saying that she had sepsis and was in the ICU and all this stuff that was going wrong. My dad was crying. It was awful. I was crying because I was sure she wasn't going to make it and Blaze was crying also. We got to billings at 2am and when we got there, they said that she was doing better and improving! About an hour later, me, blaze, dad and Fran got to go in and see her. She was just waking up and she was talking to us! I have never felt so relieved and thankful that I got to see her and hold her hand and hear her talk and look at me again. I was holding her hand and trying not to cry. A nurse came in and told us everything that was going on and how well she was doing and how she would get to go home in a couple weeks or so. We had to get back to powell though, so at about 4, we left the hospital and didn't get home until 6! We had all been up for 24 hours. We slept until the afternoon and then I went to the eye doctor and then Justin and I went to dinner with some friends and then came home. It was such a crazy few days. I heard yesterday that grandma is out if the ICU and improving so much. Thank goodness . All I've been thinking though is how much I wish I could be there and talk to her more and hold her hand more. I love her so much and it broke my heart in pieces when I almost lost her. I feel like I haven't been the best granddaughter. I forget to call. I don't visit as much as I should but I really want to be better now. I know that someday she really will be gone and there won't be any bringing her back, but for now I get another shot and I want to do the best I can. I love her so much.